Now that all this moving is almost all other (a couple lingering issues remain but hopefully I’ll have them resolved within a week), I can finally get back on track with these spring and summer projects. The weather’s shaping up, my social life’s back on track, and the future looks seemingly bright. Well, except for the student debt. Oh well.
I may say that preproduction is one of the demons I seemingly cannot overcome when it comes to making videos, but once I actually try and put things together it’s really not that bad. Waiting for people to get back to you can be stressful, but it’s all about finding the right people. The group of guys that I’ll be working with are awesome. They’re actually my core group of friends. They’re on board and excited to start shooting, which is awesome to hear.
But behind all this optimism and positivity there lie other problems I’m dealing with. I can easily get discouraged if I see that things aren’t going my way, like thinking about all that damn student debt. I guess one way to keep my hopes up is find the humor in all of this discouragement. Also, nonstop playlists filled with the hits of the 90’s. Call me a 90’s kid (I’m pretty damn sure I’ve been one this whole time but in complete denial) but there’s a sense of comfort that comes from nostalgia. Not just the music, but the movies, TV shows, and video games have this nostalgic sense of comfort, telling me that there’s nothing to worry about. And it helps, believe it or not.
As for my weekly album recommendation, I mentioned above I’ve been listening to a lot of 90’s music, but this week’s album is from the following decade from a guy who got his start in the 90’s.
Beck’s album Guero is one of my all-time favorite albums. Fantastic from start to end. The quirky and weird style Beck brings to the table frequently is fantastic for the ears. I’m kind of ashamed to admit this, but I haven’t listened to Morning Phase yet. I should probably jump on that.
This week’s post was a little briefer than the others, but I’m in good spirits, so let’s keep it that way.
If there’s one thing that can completely derail any positive thought and make me contemplate suicide, it’s student loan payments…
This is a lesson to all you young people who haven’t gone to college yet, this is what I get for having dreams. Actually, that’s not completely true. I had a dream but chose a super expensive school without any real academic requirements to be accepted (GPA, SAT/ACT Scores), then half-assed scholarship applications, and wondered why I got dealt such a shitty hand. I don’t know how much longer I can play the victim in this situation, but this is an awful situation for anyone to be put into. I just wish the lenders could practice some empathy and help us college grads out instead of giving us the “You Made This Decision, Time To Pay For It” treatment.
Also, I just read that the total sum of student loan debt just broke a trillion dollars. I guess I’m part of the problem now, take me around the back and shoot me already, would ya?
It’s also really weird I went to school to study film and video production, and then after school I started taking more of a focus on comedy instead of film (although film and video are still super important to me). I feel like I’ve been able to contradict myself and what I stand for at every opportunity and I can’t stop myself from perpetuating it even further. I guess that’s human nature (just kidding. I’m the biggest hypocritical piece of shit to walk this earth and I can’t do shit to make myself a better person.)
Other than this only thing to make actually contemplate ending it all, life continues. I moved into a new place over the weekend, and I can already tell my social life is picking up. Especially after this winter, this was very necessary. Hopefully the warmer weather brings better moods, which I’m sure they will. As long as the loans don’t drive me over the edge.
With the moving I haven’t been able to get much work on my projects done. The shooting dates, although still tentative, are coming up really soon, so I need to bust ass in general. I want these miniseries to be done so I can get back to making people laugh. That’s all I want to do in life. That and not sit at a desk for 40 hours a week for the rest of my life.
I haven’t listened to any new music this week, so my weekly album recommendation is a throwback, and it’s one of my favorite albums of all time.
20 years ago Soundgarden released Superunknown, and damn is it a great album. It hits the ground running from the start with the first track “Let Me Drown” and keeps it going with “My Wave”, my favorite Soundgarden song from all their albums. The album also features the big hits like “Black Hole Sun” and “Spoonman”, and towards the end it really gets grungy with “4th of July”. At SXSW Soundgarden performed Superunknown in its entirety at the iTunes Festival. I managed to watch it via iTunes and they still have that great sound after all these years. If only Chris Cornell can get back together with Tom Morello, Tim Commerford, and Brad Wilk of Rage Against The Machine and do some more Audioslave every now and then. Hell, I wish the Rage guys can do more instrumentals. They were probably my favorite part of all the Audioslave albums.
Had a birthday yesterday, it was fun. I never considered January 1 to be the beginning of a new year, always the end of March. Partially because of my birthday, but also because around the time of my birthday is also the time winter ends. Yes, I’m fucking talking about the worst time of the year again, but what I’m trying to say is that around this time of the year is the true new beginning of a year for me. It just makes more sense to start on a positive note than sulk in the negativity at the beginning.
And speaking about new beginnings, I’m setting goals as to who the person I want to be and the things I want to achieve. Develop thicker skin, talk less and listen more, don’t take little things seriously, take more improv classes and involve myself more in the comedy world are all on my list for 22 years of age. It’ll be an interesting time as I’m no longer in school and I’m working full time.
My projects are slowly but surely starting to take some kind of form. I still have plenty of preproduction to do, but I’m super excited to do it and the other people involved are getting excited as well. I know I keep talking this up and all this talking doesn’t mean anything until I actually do something, but I’m still not shooting for another month. It’s just a part of the plan, just bear with me.
Other than that life’s good, I move into my new place this weekend. I’ll be walking distance from my friends, an awesome view of the city, and there’s even a bar with a comedy open mic night every week! Hopefully I can get my finances and expenses in check because that’s an eternal battle for all of us.
Last week for my album recommendation I said that I listened to Foster the People’s new album and I really liked it, but I went with a comedy album instead. This week’s album will be that Foster the People album, Supermodel.
Their first album Torches was great the whole way through and I couldn’t wait to hear their sophomore album. Supermodel is a great return to the sound they created in Torches. The critics don’t think likewise, but critics be critics. I like too many things to be a critic. Two of my favorite tracks on the album are the hit single “Coming of Age” and the following track “Nevermind”.
Next week I’ll see a true beginning with a change of scenery and not having to worry about all this moving crap. I’ll try to keep it as positive as possible.
Man, I can’t believe that March is almost over already, but that means legit Springtime is right around the corner! I mention this every week, but fuck winter.
Onto the actual talk, with winter ending, my productivity outside of work is picking up. I’ve been a shut-in basically this whole winter to focus on my writing. And now that the writing and winter are both over, it’s time to move on the next steps of my projects. I’ve started to make cast lists, location lists, prop lists, you name it. The fun begins. I must mention this is the part of making videos that I am ABSOLUTELY AWFUL at. But it’ll be an experience, that’s for sure.
I’m still staying positive, which is always awesome. Maybe it was the weather that sent me into a downward spiral of borderline depression. Then again that could’ve been the coffee. Let’s just blame the coffee and the caffeine. It’s a deadly drug, people can become addicted to it, and people can die from overdosed. Therefore it should be illegal.
*Jumps off soapbox*
Now that we have that out of the way, time to throw you a weekly album recommendation. My initial recommendation was going to be the new Foster The People album Supermodel. Great album that released yesterday, but I’m going to take it into another direction. We’re stepping away from the music and jumping into comedy.
I’m listening to Kyle Kinane’s Whiskey Icarus, and man does Kyle kill it. Great stories from the man known as “The Voice Of Comedy Central”. Ever hear their promos and hear the voice? That’s him.
That’s all I have this week. Things are going in the right direction, AND WINTER IS BREATHING ITS LAST COLD BREATH! Thank goodness.
Positivity is reigning supreme in the mind of Bread, and damn is it a great feeling! Everything seems to be getting better as winter breathes its dying breath (we should have taken winter around the back and shot it it the head a while ago), and I couldn’t be more excited for this warmer weather. Yesterday I got a great taste of the spring. 60 degree weather and sunshine makes any man smile.
Other than the weather, other things are going my way as it seems. I’m slowly but surely getting moving stuff done. I move to my new place in 2 and a half weeks, and I still have plenty of things to do for that. It doesn’t seem so intimidating now, which is a good thing.
Though the moving has stalled my progress on the preproduction of my spring projects, the ideas just keep flowing. I love it when I get an idea for a film and a skit. I write it down furiously, start thinking of more ideas for these ideas, and it just feels so damn good to write down ideas. I desperately need to start working on the shooting schedule for these projects, however.
Other than that, all is well, and I feel the ship is sailing in the right direction. I think there are two key things that are helping with my positive thinking and productivity: Cutting out my caffeine intake and listening to podcasts. I talked about me and coffee last week, so let me talk about my love for podcasts.
As many of you know I want to pursue comedy and show business, mainly film, but comedy is definitely number one at the moment. Podcasting is great for comedians, both the ones who make the podcasts and the aspiring comedians like myself. I’ve listened to a lot of SModcast before because I was a big fan of Kevin Smith. I also checked out Comedy Bang Bang: The Podcast. Great stuff by Scott Aukerman and all those other guys.
Recently I’ve been delving into the Nerdist podcasts, two in particular. The first one being You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes. A lot of Holmes’ material is hit or miss for me, but I like him as a person because he’s almost always super positive about what he does. I started from the beginning and I’ve listened to about 8 episodes now. It’s such a great look into the weirder sides to comedians but also just the mindset of a comedian.
The other one is Making It with Riki Lindhome of Garfunkel and Oates fame. I’ve listened to the first few so far, and Lindhome and her guest offer great stories of how they “made it” in comedy/film/LA/whatever. Great encouragement to keep doing what I do, because I don’t know what opportunities will arise.
Podcasts are great and all, but I haven’t forgotten about my weekly album recommendation. Last week I recommended an album by indie group Wild Cub, and I’m keeping with the trend of indie groups with bear-themed names with a band called Bear Hands. At the end of the summer I heard a song from them called “Giants” on SirusXM’s Alt Nation, and their sound was pretty damn awesome. A few weeks ago I found out they released a full album this year. That album is called Distraction.
As catchy as “Giants” was, there are equally, if not more, catchy songs on the album, including ”Agora” and “Bone Digger”. Good driving music, too.
So these next couple of weeks will be full of transitions and trying to get back into the groove of shooting, but it’ll be a fun time. Plus, winter is almost over! I know I’ve mentioned that too many times, but we all just want it to be over already.
The first two miserable months of the month are finally over. Awful weather, bad luck, and things out of my control discouraged me and seemingly put me a few steps back. Luckily warmer weather is on its way, and things are looking hopeful. I’m feeling good and not discouraged, which is always a good thing.
First off, my two miniseries have drafts and I’m ready to move further with preproduction. I’m pumped for the warmer weather and the shooting, I can’t stress that enough. It also helps that instead of driving to the shoots, I can just walk now! I’m moving from one part of Pittsburgh to another. This part of town is where most of my friends live, and I can walk to all of them. I move in at the end of the month, cannot freaking wait.
I’m also brainstorming some ideas for the gaming channel. I’m not going to spoil anything, I’ll just let you guys wait and see what happens.
And now, on this very brief edition of the State of the Bread, here is my weekly album recommendation:
This album, Youth by Wild Cub, was a long-awaited release for me. Last year I heard the song “Wishing Well” on Pandora of all places. This caught my attention, so I looked into Wild Cub, and at the time they only had an EP available, which I thoroughly enjoyed. In the summer, I heard another single by them, “Thunder Clatter”, on SiriusXM’s Alt Nation. Hearing Bear Cub get this kind of exposure was absolutely awesome and couldn’t wait to hear a full album. And what do you know? They released this very great album this year.
That’s basically it for Bread. Not much but good vibes flowing at the moment. Let’s hope I keep the good times going.
I swear this winter has had the worst effect on me, maybe it’s the caffeine, too. Now it’s not the weather that’s completely fucked me over, you can thank a few flaky people on the way, too. But with the caffeine I noticed that my mood swings faster than a rocket-powered seesaw (and before you think of stealing that idea, I have patents in my name already and we’re building a prototype to test in the summer). My mood will go to super positive, an on top of the world feeling to feeling like I’m scum of the earth, going nowhere, everyone thinks I’m an asshole, all that shit. So going on, coffee’s being cut back, like a shit ton, son. Caffeine is a dangerous drug, and it tears families apart. I think that caffeine should be a Schedule 1 Narcotic and coffee should be banned. Let’s see how that prohibition works (but I still want my green tea.)
Now onto what’s really going on with me. Seems like the big thing today is my financial hardships. Ever since the roommate flaked on me earlier this month, I feel like I’m trapped in this never-ending cycle of uncertainty in general, not just financially. It just sucks that you anticipate having this set plan, and the rug is pulled out from under you.
Luckily I have a new place that I’ll be moving into in about a month. Sucks for me because not only do I have to pay full rent and utilities for the month but now I have to pay the security deposit on the new place. Lesson of this story: ALWAYS have money saved up. Luckily I do, but I’ll feel like I’d be starting from square one, and this square one is tougher than the first because in the beginning I’ll be paying way more than I did at my current place.
And the “rug being pulled out” situation doesn’t end there. Because of all this craziness happening I had to cancel a weekend trip home, which made me feel like an absolute asshole, but I had to figure out my situation.
So now I’m thinking, “This is what you get for having dreams, Brad. You put yourself in six figures of debt, you have a job making only $20K a year.”
"But wait! At least I have a job!"
"Yeah, but it’s not enough. Let me continue. You’re barely staying out of the red, you’ve basically alienated everyone from home except family and your really good friends from home, and you keep thinking you’re going to make it. Good luck with that."
Yes, this is what goes on in my head almost daily. I know I have my skeptics out there who think I can’t achieve what I desire to. Times are tough. I have 2 miniseries ready to shoot, but I need to pay rent. Now I’m pretty sure I can do both, but it’ll be tough, let me tell you. I guess with my creative projects, I guess I have to have fun with it and do the best I can.
And my album of the week is going to throw you all off, I think.
Yes, this white boy was listening to NWA’s “Straight Outta Compton”, but this is a landmark for rap in a way. Think about it: A group that included guys such as Ice Cube, Dr. Dre, and Eazy E, throwing down rhymes about questioning authority and the LA gangster life. We saw that come back to life with Kendrick Lamar’s “Good Kid, M.A.A.D City”, although it never really went away. This album has the classic tracks such as “Straight Outta Compton”, “F**k Tha Polics”, and my favorite from NWA, “Express Yourself”, because you don’t always have to rhyme about crooks and cops, sometimes just doing you will bring the people together.
So my message of the week is summed up to “Stop drinking coffee and be yourself. But don’t you fucking touch my green tea, you savages.”