The State Of The Bread - April 23, 2014

Life has many challenges, it’s really up to the individual to decide what challenges they want to take on. The challenge I’m on right now primarily is making myself a better and happier person. I’m seeing the small changes and it’s giving me hope that I’ll become a more likable person.

One of the things I’ve noticed about myself is how absurd and irrational some of my thoughts and opinions can be, especially when it comes to sports. I’ll look back at some of the ones I posted and think, “What in the hell, Bread!?”  But it kind of hit me just a couple days ago. You can take these thoughts and opinions and remove yourself from the equation and add a different and more laughable personality. This way people can laugh and not bat an eye or look at me the wrong way.

I still have lots of room for improvement, like thickening my skin and becoming more patient. Then again, I’m only 22 so I’ve got time.

With the projects, the Springtime is officially here, so I really need to get some concrete dates down for this. I’m meeting up with my collaborators this weekend so progress is in the horizon.

But at the same time, I have this sinking feeling my plans will crumble apart once one person says that something else has come up. As selfish as this sounds, I absolutely hate when this happens. I know that things happen, but this has happened to me way too frequently in the past, and it’s definitely going to come back to bite me in the butt. And the worst part is I don’t have a set plan when this happens. No one does. And it happens at usually the worst time, too. Shit like this always discourages me from ever wanting to shoot anything.

This week I’m going into the indie realm for my album recommendation.

Local Natives’ Hummingbird was an album I frequented a lot last year, and I revisited it the other day. It feels very summery, just an album that would feel right if you were to lay in the sun with that special someone and let the sunshine do its thing. Now I just need to find that special someone…

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So this is English and then in French. You don’t want to put French people in Southern California and likewise.

"This is not what I meant when I said ‘thé vert’, get me off of this halfpipe right now!"

So this is English and then in French. You don’t want to put French people in Southern California and likewise.

"This is not what I meant when I said ‘thé vert’, get me off of this halfpipe right now!"


Working on fighting animations (early version)

Me again, this time I’m in fighting form.


Working on fighting animations (early version)

Me again, this time I’m in fighting form.

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The State Of The Bread - April 16, 2014

I feel like it’s time to stop dicking around and actually prioritize things in my life. I’ve been stressing out about the things not going my way in life, and honestly, stressing about it isn’t the best way to go. I still have some control of that outcome, so that means it’s time to roll up my sleeves and take some action.

First off, the money situation. I’ve been doing a decent job of keeping some sort of budget in the past months, so it’s time to save more and actually put some money into my savings account. It’s really doable in my opinion. First I have to cut out a lot of the eating out I do. I had to eat out, unfortunately, for the past month or so because of this move but I’ve finally settled in to the new place. I actually enjoy cooking, there’s this satisfaction I get from making something (obviously, I’m a creative person). Plus, when I cook, I make enough for 3 meals. Eat the dinner then and have 2 extra meals for dinner/lunch for the next couple days.

Next course of budget action would be not spending so much on entertainment (movies, games, music, etc.). This is going to sound awful, but I’m a film school graduate but only on occasion do I go out to the theater to go see a movie. Part of it is the cost and I also have Netflix/Hulu Plus for my watching needs but also that I’ve taken more of a focus on comedy than I have on filmmaking. But both are still very dear to my heart, they go hand in hand.

Other than that, I could sell some stuff I have laying around, keep doing freelance, start flipping stuff (buying old used stuff, repairing/making nicer and reselling), or get a second job. I don’t like the last option because I love having this free time to work on projects, though I do spend a good chunk of that time sitting around not doing productive things. Gotta change that for sure.

Other than money, I’m prioritizing things in general, which brings me to a bit of bad news. I said originally I had these 3 webseries I wanted to shoot this spring and summer. I had to put one aside, but now I have to put another one aside. But it will benefit from being on the backburner while I only do one at the moment. They’ll all be of better quality if I do them one at a time.

And in other news, NBC is doing a contest called the Comedy Playground, where you submit a pitch video about a sitcom you want to do. I’m going to enter this, and use a modified idea of one of these projects I’ve been wanting to do. I’m very excited to do this because I have the foundation of my pitch idea down. I just have to wait until the contest officially starts, which is May 1.

That’s all I have on my mind this week, and now it’s time for my album recommendation, which happens to be another older album.

This week it’s the Smashing Pumpkins’ first album Gish. I saw Bad Words, the new Jason Bateman film, this past weekend, and at the end of the film played a song from this album, and it made me re-listen to this album. Damn is it a fine piece of music! I’m really bad at explaining why I think a piece of music is good and I often confuse myself when I try to do this, but from beginning to end the Pumpkins put together such an amazing debut album which laid down the foundation of one of the greatest alt bands to play. I just wish the original lineup of Billy Corgan, D’Arcy Wretzky, James Iha, and Jimmy Chamberlin, but only Billy remains. Oh well. Time to delve into nostalgia once again, right?

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The State Of The Bread - April 9, 2014

Now that all this moving is almost all other (a couple lingering issues remain but hopefully I’ll have them resolved within a week), I can finally get back on track with these spring and summer projects. The weather’s shaping up, my social life’s back on track, and the future looks seemingly bright. Well, except for the student debt. Oh well.

I may say that preproduction is one of the demons I seemingly cannot overcome when it comes to making videos, but once I actually try and put things together it’s really not that bad. Waiting for people to get back to you can be stressful, but it’s all about finding the right people. The group of guys that I’ll be working with are awesome. They’re actually my core group of friends. They’re on board and excited to start shooting, which is awesome to hear.

But behind all this optimism and positivity there lie other problems I’m dealing with. I can easily get discouraged if I see that things aren’t going my way, like thinking about all that damn student debt. I guess one way to keep my hopes up is find the humor in all of this discouragement. Also, nonstop playlists filled with the hits of the 90’s. Call me a 90’s kid (I’m pretty damn sure I’ve been one this whole time but in complete denial) but there’s a sense of comfort that comes from nostalgia. Not just the music, but the movies, TV shows, and video games have this nostalgic sense of comfort, telling me that there’s nothing to worry about. And it helps, believe it or not.

As for my weekly album recommendation, I mentioned above I’ve been listening to a lot of 90’s music, but this week’s album is from the following decade from a guy who got his start in the 90’s.

Beck’s album Guero is one of my all-time favorite albums. Fantastic from start to end. The quirky and weird style Beck brings to the table frequently is fantastic for the ears. I’m kind of ashamed to admit this, but I haven’t listened to Morning Phase yet. I should probably jump on that.

This week’s post was a little briefer than the others, but I’m in good spirits, so let’s keep it that way.

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The State Of The Bread - April 2, 2014 (AKA Student Loans Blow)

If there’s one thing that can completely derail any positive thought and make me contemplate suicide, it’s student loan payments…

This is a lesson to all you young people who haven’t gone to college yet, this is what I get for having dreams. Actually, that’s not completely true. I had a dream but chose a super expensive school without any real academic requirements to be accepted (GPA, SAT/ACT Scores), then half-assed scholarship applications, and wondered why I got dealt such a shitty hand. I don’t know how much longer I can play the victim in this situation, but this is an awful situation for anyone to be put into. I just wish the lenders could practice some empathy and help us college grads out instead of giving us the “You Made This Decision, Time To Pay For It” treatment.

Also, I just read that the total sum of student loan debt just broke a trillion dollars. I guess I’m part of the problem now, take me around the back and shoot me already, would ya?

It’s also really weird I went to school to study film and video production, and then after school I started taking more of a focus on comedy instead of film (although film and video are still super important to me). I feel like I’ve been able to contradict myself and what I stand for at every opportunity and I can’t stop myself from perpetuating it even further. I guess that’s human nature (just kidding. I’m the biggest hypocritical piece of shit to walk this earth and I can’t do shit to make myself a better person.)

Other than this only thing to make actually contemplate ending it all, life continues. I moved into a new place over the weekend, and I can already tell my social life is picking up. Especially after this winter, this was very necessary. Hopefully the warmer weather brings better moods, which I’m sure they will. As long as the loans don’t drive me over the edge.

With the moving I haven’t been able to get much work on my projects done. The shooting dates, although still tentative, are coming up really soon, so I need to bust ass in general. I want these miniseries to be done so I can get back to making people laugh. That’s all I want to do in life. That and not sit at a desk for 40 hours a week for the rest of my life.

I haven’t listened to any new music this week, so my weekly album recommendation is a throwback, and it’s one of my favorite albums of all time.

20 years ago Soundgarden released Superunknown, and damn is it a great album. It hits the ground running from the start with the first track “Let Me Drown” and keeps it going with “My Wave”, my favorite Soundgarden song from all their albums. The album also features the big hits like “Black Hole Sun” and “Spoonman”, and towards the end it really gets grungy with “4th of July”. At SXSW Soundgarden performed Superunknown in its entirety at the iTunes Festival. I managed to watch it via iTunes and they still have that great sound after all these years. If only Chris Cornell can get back together with Tom Morello, Tim Commerford, and Brad Wilk of Rage Against The Machine and do some more Audioslave every now and then. Hell, I wish the Rage guys can do more instrumentals. They were probably my favorite part of all the Audioslave albums.


I have a sandwich named after me at Epic Deli in the burbs of Chicago.   It doesn’t seem healthy at all, just like me.

That sounds amazing, but the only way it can be a true Hannibal Buress sandwich is if it had pickle juice flicked on it.


I have a sandwich named after me at Epic Deli in the burbs of Chicago. It doesn’t seem healthy at all, just like me.

That sounds amazing, but the only way it can be a true Hannibal Buress sandwich is if it had pickle juice flicked on it.

The State Of The Bread - March 26, 2014

Had a birthday yesterday, it was fun. I never considered January 1 to be the beginning of a new year, always the end of March. Partially because of my birthday, but also because around the time of my birthday is also the time winter ends. Yes, I’m fucking talking about the worst time of the year again, but what I’m trying to say is that around this time of the year is the true new beginning of a year for me. It just makes more sense to start on a positive note than sulk in the negativity at the beginning.

And speaking about new beginnings, I’m setting goals as to who the person I want to be and the things I want to achieve. Develop thicker skin, talk less and listen more, don’t take little things seriously, take more improv classes and involve myself more in the comedy world are all on my list for 22 years of age. It’ll be an interesting time as I’m no longer in school and I’m working full time.

My projects are slowly but surely starting to take some kind of form. I still have plenty of preproduction to do, but I’m super excited to do it and the other people involved are getting excited as well. I know I keep talking this up and all this talking doesn’t mean anything until I actually do something, but I’m still not shooting for another month. It’s just a part of the plan, just bear with me.

Other than that life’s good, I move into my new place this weekend. I’ll be walking distance from my friends, an awesome view of the city, and there’s even a bar with a comedy open mic night every week! Hopefully I can get my finances and expenses in check because that’s an eternal battle for all of us.

Last week for my album recommendation I said that I listened to Foster the People’s new album and I really liked it, but I went with a comedy album instead. This week’s album will be that Foster the People album, Supermodel.

Their first album Torches was great the whole way through and I couldn’t wait to hear their sophomore album. Supermodel is a great return to the sound they created in Torches. The critics don’t think likewise, but critics be critics. I like too many things to be a critic. Two of my favorite tracks on the album are the hit single “Coming of Age” and the following track “Nevermind”.

Next week I’ll see a true beginning with a change of scenery and not having to worry about all this moving crap. I’ll try to keep it as positive as possible.

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The State Of The Bread - March 19, 2014

Man, I can’t believe that March is almost over already, but that means legit Springtime is right around the corner! I mention this every week, but fuck winter.

Onto the actual talk, with winter ending, my productivity outside of work is picking up. I’ve been a shut-in basically this whole winter to focus on my writing. And now that the writing and winter are both over, it’s time to move on the next steps of my projects. I’ve started to make cast lists, location lists, prop lists, you name it. The fun begins. I must mention this is the part of making videos that I am ABSOLUTELY AWFUL at. But it’ll be an experience, that’s for sure.

I’m still staying positive, which is always awesome. Maybe it was the weather that sent me into a downward spiral of borderline depression. Then again that could’ve been the coffee. Let’s just blame the coffee and the caffeine. It’s a deadly drug, people can become addicted to it, and people can die from overdosed. Therefore it should be illegal.

*Jumps off soapbox*

Now that we have that out of the way, time to throw you a weekly album recommendation. My initial recommendation was going to be the new Foster The People album Supermodel. Great album that released yesterday, but I’m going to take it into another direction. We’re stepping away from the music and jumping into comedy.

I’m listening to Kyle Kinane’s Whiskey Icarus, and man does Kyle kill it. Great stories from the man known as “The Voice Of Comedy Central”. Ever hear their promos and hear the voice? That’s him.

That’s all I have this week. Things are going in the right direction, AND WINTER IS BREATHING ITS LAST COLD BREATH! Thank goodness.

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